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Mental Illness & My Road To Recovery

As if you could kill time without injuring eternity

Name:
lawyer_scum
Birthdate:
13 August
External Services:
  • lawyer_scum@livejournal.com
“I believed that the woods are not tenantless, but chockfull of honest spirits as good as myself any day-not an empty chamber, in which chemistry was left to work alone, but an inhabited house-and for a few moments I enjoyed fellowship with them.”

Henry David Thoreau
Main Woods, A Light In The Woods

My mother is Korean and father Irish. They met in the 1950's in Korea. Growing up my household was one of emotional extremes. Both my parents are extremely bipolar with manic-depressive personalities. Sometimes, I wouldn't know if I was going to be puched or hugged.

I have not been able to form meaningful lasting relationships and have an excessive tendency to: over sell myself and to need and receive constant reaffirmation from people. My mental illness makes me emtionally needy. I define my self-image through how I believe other people perceive me and have no sense of self.

SOME OF MY WORK EXPERIENCE

IMC-Data Manager Inc., President, 1038 Kiel Court, Sunnyvale, CA 1992-1996 Silicon Valley high technology company that designed and manufactured network data communication devices: ethernet bridges, routers, print servers, serial and parallel printer sharing devices. Primary clients: Bloomberg Financial, Hewlett Packard – Medical Products Division, Shell Oil, and Chevron USA.

Novell Corporation, Technical Support Engineer, Level II (TSE II) Monterey, CA 1992, provided escalation level technical engineering support for Network and Desktop Operating Systems: Novell NetWare 3.11 & 4.0, Microsoft Windows 3.1 and Windows for Workgroups 3.1

Digital Research Incorporated, Escalation Level Technical Engineer, Monterey, CA 1991, Provided advanced desktop operating system (OS) technical support for: DR-DOS 4.0, 5.0, Multi User DOS, Concurrent DOS.

Oak Tree Video Game Company, Owner, 425 15th Street & San Pablo Avenue, Oakland, CA 94610 1980-1986 Coin-operated business with over 200 video games and pinball machines, performed electronic equipment repairs in-house: linear and pulse width modulation power supplies, XY and raster game monitors, game board logic, electro mechanical repair, including analog, digital and hybrid game systems.

SOME OF MY EDUCATION

Concord University School of Law, JD, 2009 to present
St. Mary's College, M.A. Leadership 2008 (unfinished)
Saint Mary’s College, B.A. Law w/ Honors 2007
Boston University, History & American Foreign relations 1986-1990, M.A./B.A.
Diablo Valley College 1982 - 1984

COLLEGES I HAVE BEEN THROWN OUT OF FOR ACADEMIC, SOCIAL, BY CHOICE OR TRANSITORY FINANCIAL REASONS

University of California -Berkeley
University of San Francisco
Boston College
Harvard University

FRIENDS I HAVE LOST DUE TO MENTAL ILLNESS
Too many to list without a private file server

BUSINESS RELATIONSHIPS I HAVE DESTROYED DUE TO MENTAL ILLNESS
Too many to list without a private file server

WHAT I HOPE GAIN FROM THIS WEB LOG
A chronicle of my recovery with citations of my slips and falls.
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